Last Days... :'(

July 28, 2010

This day is almost arriving to its end, as well as my period in Pilsen. Now I just have three more days here, and the coming back will take place early Sunday morning. I cannot understand how a whole month is almost getting to its end. Although at the beginning of this experience, I wanted so badly to come back, now is otherwise. I find myself fighting against time, dreaming that this few days take forever. I now love Pilsen, even if it is not as pretty as other cities in the world. Here I have learned many things that have made me not only a better musician but also a better person. I feel more mature. Now I really know what I want, and what should I do to get to it. I am much braver, as I have lost the fear to many things I used to have. I am not afraid to failures, as I know now that after falling you can always stand up again. I am not afraid to loneliness, as what is the best companion than yourself, music and God? I am not afraid to fight every day, as it is this the only way to reach your dreams. I am now not afraid to the future, as I am the one responsible of it. I have now grown much more (Sadly, this not includes my height). I have now discovered my true love: music. Therefore, I am now a much more complete person.

So, several things have happened in this half of my last week here. I finish taking classes with Professor Brejcha. After my last class (which was today), he told me what he thinks was the things that are going to help me the most. He said: “ Natalia, first of all I will like you to stop being shy. And I am not meaning in your personal life, but while playing the piano. I can see you are a truly musician as you are able to express your deepest feelings through music. However, you tend to be a little shy. So, you have to remember that music is a magical language in which you are able to express everything without words; and every human being has the right to express fully what he or she feels. We, musicians, have the greatest gift of all, which is expressing ourselves through art. We are happy of doing it. We are in love of music. So, we NEVER EVER be shy when playing. Once you are in the piano, you should always open your heart. (This thought I think was the most important, and it is an advice I will always carry with me) . Second, he said, just work on the thing I have told you (technical thing), and you will be ready. You are a great musician, keep working.” I must say it was a real pleasure taking classes with him, as he is not only a great musician and teacher, but also a great person. In my first two weeks, I learn to love music and piano more, and I thought then I already love it so much that it was not possible to love it more. Now I know that as further I go, my love towards piano and music keeps growing more.

As a summary of my classes with Dr. Silverman and Professor Brejcha, I will say that what I think was the most important (everything I will keep forever in my heart, but I think this two quotes pretty much take into account everything else):

Dr. Silverman: “You should always be an artist first, and pianist second.”

Professor Brejcha: “Do not EVER be shy in the piano.”

I must say I know that I still have a long path to walk in, but also that I am more than willing to follow it and fight against any difficulty that may appear along it.

Finally, my last days will not be really relaxed. Although I finish my classes with Brejcha, on Friday I will have one with Dr. Arthur Greene from University of Michigan, and I am really looking for it. So tomorrow, I will practice whole day and prepare to my last lesson here at IMAP. On Saturday, I will practice in the morning for my last time here at IMAP, the last recital will take place, the last dinner with my new friends will also take place, and also this is going to be packing day as my plane will depart on Sunday at 7:00 am. I promise to write at least one more time before the end of this experience, to tell you about how those days went, and also I would like to write a last blog as a thankful letter for all those who helped me live this experience back at home, and those here at IMAP who teach me how to be a better pianist and musician.

Third Week

July 28, 2010

IMAP is getting to its end, and I haven’t written in a long time. Sorry for that. So in this blog, I am going to talk about my third week. This first week of the second half was the most calm of all four. I had my two lessons of piano, now with professor Miroslav Brejcha, Director of Pilsen Conservatory. His way of teaching is very different from Dr. Silverman’s, however I think was as interesting. He has focused more in technique, and has given me much information about how to play more easily. He is very patient and good professor. I think his thoughts are helping me very much, as he is teaching me a lot of technique, although I will need time to be able of applying all this new things to my playing. He had also recommended me some studios to improve my playing. I was really happy, as I think he noticed things I have been struggling before, but not being able to improve. Now I have more work, but I am more than glad to do it as I want so badly to be one of the bests.

So, although this week was more relaxed I used it to practice more and to think more about why I want to do in my future, regarding my playing. I realized that I want to be one of the bests. Here in IMAP I have known so many good pianists that make me really nervous. However, I know if I practice more seriously I will be able to feel even more comfortable with my playing. I am so glad I came here. Now more than ever I want to spend as many time in the piano, as can possible be. I want to be able to communicate myself more easily through music. I have discovered that I loved this even much more than I had ever imagined. Now other things seems not as important, if I am with my piano and music I know that I am going to be the happiest person in the world. Now I am ready to start a new period in my life. I feel myself more mature. Now I know what I want and more important that I am willing to fight for it. I know this may be really hard, as was the first weeks here at IMAP. But I discovered a new Natalia, a person that is strong and can over passed the difficulties life may have; a person that is really passionate about what she is doing, and wants to start a battle even knowing is a battle of continues fights. As one friend here at IMAP told me after I was complaining of my first week here (a week that had lots of problems, a week of awakening); she told me “I am going to say to you what my professor always said: THERE IS NO TIME FOR TEARS, THERE IS JUST TIME FOR BEING PROFESSIONAL.” Thus, for now on, I will try to always be professional: Always fighting to reach my goal, even when some difficulties may arrive.

Second Week

July 21, 2010

My second week was full of endings. I took my last class with Dr. Silverman and my last class of chamber music. I must say my last class of piano was awesome. Dr. Silverman spoke really beautiful to me, and that I will appreciate it forever. Probably, I did not express fully about how I felt of taking classes with him. I feel sorry for that, hope he understood Spanish, as it is this my first language, and it is in this language in which I can express myself more completely. I have to say, that it was a tremendous pleasure taking classes with him. I learned so many things, and I truly believe this was a once in a lifetime experience. I have so many things to thank him that made me feel bad me not being able to completely express my appreciation to him. Hope he could felt it, as I am really happy and motivated in what concerns with improving my playing of the piano due to all his comments and teachings. So, thank you very much Dr. Silverman! I am more than willing to continue practicing and working to improve my piano playing, as this is what I love the most. Playing the piano has and always been my most precious treasure, and you helped me to love and know it more. Thank you!

On the other hand, my last class of chamber was not that good. I have to practice much more playing with other instruments as partners rather than just as an accompanist. I must confess that I was really glad of finishing this class because it was really stressing for me. What I learned of this? I think: one to practice more with metronome. Playing with other instruments, not as an accompanist but as a partner of a trio, made me feel really nervous and anxious, which made me lost the tempo (a really bad thing especially when talking about ensembles), even though I always practiced this piece with metronome for several hours every day. Two: have more communication with my colleagues of the ensemble. It was really hard not knowing them and just playing with them during coaching time. So, I think this was a really big problem at least for me, because we were creating the same music, which means we were trying to kind of express the same idea, without even knowing each other and being on the same page. Three: Focus more on the hard passages so those are good enough and do not bring you any problems when you are playing under pressure (A fact that I already knew, but by some reason I didn’t did).So by the end of my class, I felt mad with me because I really believe I could have done a better job if I would’ve focus more; but also I felt really relief, I was getting really tired of being so stressed and not being able to really concentrate in my coaching periods. Shame on me! :/

Finally, my weekend was awesome. I just take it free and very calm so I can recharge batteries for the upcoming weeks. On Saturday, I went to practice my six hours, and after that me and three other girls went to the mall to watch a movie and have dinner. Next day, was kind of the same: Waking up late, going shopping, watching another movie and having dinner. A really good weekend which I think I enjoyed a hundred percent. Now I am more than ready to start the second half of this amazing experience.

So today I am posting some photos of the new conservatory or house of music, which is the new building of the conservatory and the place where the pianists of IMAP do almost everything. In the first picture , you will see the conservatory from the outside: a beautiful old building. After that I am posting some photos of the practice rooms, especially where I practice as we have to divide the practice in groups of 4. So each group has one upright piano and one grand. Hope you like them :D!!

July 11

July 11

Prague is the most beautiful city in the world! I am not that sure if there are the words to describe it! The architecture is so pretty! I mean, the moment I arrived there I felt I was in a magical old world. The streets are all of stone, and the buildings have pretty colors. No wondering why it was the place so many pieces were created. We spent there almost all day. The bus took off at 8am to Prague, and it is an hour from Pilsen to there. Then, we took the metro all the way to downtown of Prague. At 7:30 pm we were coming back.

At Prague, we walked and walked and walked. We went to the cathedral, and walked 280 stairs up and down! I was tired and dizzy after that because it was in a spiral form! But the view up there was amazing! We went to amazing restaurants and ate gelato ice cream. We visited several interesting places and bought some souvenirs. The day was so hot we were in the point to dehydrate, and for our bad luck a tiny little bottle of water (less than 500 ml) was 4 dollars! Nevertheless, I must say it was a great day! I never expected so much beauty in one city. In fact, it is so beauty that Pilsen seems even uglier than it really is. I mean it has some beautiful places, but others are really bad and old.

After the whole trip I was so tired and dirty! So at the minute I was at my dorm I took a shower and went to bed without worrying of having to wake up early next day as my turn for practice is until 12pm. Also, tomorrow I do not have classes, no recitals, just practicing. I think it is going to be a good day.

July 10

July 10, 2010

*This day is a very especial day for me as it is the day my best friend and sister born. I would’ve liked to spend it with her so badly because she is one of the persons I trust the most. She has always been with me, for bad and good occasions, and she knows me better than I know myself. So, I love you sister and hoped you had a good one. Thanks for being with me always and for listening to all my fool stuff that I have to tell, no considering the time- (although you might reclaimed it later jajaja joke). Thanks for believing in me, even if I already had lost any confidence in myself. And sorry for all the times I hadn’t being a good sister, or the sister you deserve. I wish with all my heart you always have the best because that is what you deserve. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BLESSED I FEEL FOR HAVING A SISTER LIKE YOU!! ENJOY YOUR DAY AND ALL THE DAYS OF YOUR LIFE :D!! LOVE YOU!!*

My day was pretty much a good one, although you cannot imagine how hot it was. I would see almost every guy without a shirt (don’t take it in a bad way!!- it is just to give you an idea of how high the temperature was). Plus, everyone was eating a cone of ice cream as you can find were to buy it almost at any corner, just as you would find were to buy a hot dog at New York.

So, I spend the whole morning at the conservatory practicing piano. I am really happy with it, as I already feel pretty comfortable playing the first movement of my trio and I am pretty sure I would be as comfortable with the second movement by Tuesday (the day I rehearse with my chamber partners). Hopefully, the complete trio will be ready by the end of next week! Also, I think my repertoire has improved very much in this week.

At one, I had my third lesson wit Dr. Silverman, which means I just have one left that is going to take place on Wednesday. I must say, I believe this was the best class of all. I think he was pretty happy with it. He said me and my teacher had done a terrific work, and that my playing was awesome. However, I still have to polish one page, and apply some things he taught me today, so in that way it will be much better. I am really happy! You can’t have an idea of how much I have learned!! It is so exciting!!

After my class, I went back to the dorms to meet with some other pianists in order to go and buy the tickets for the bus to Prague. This trip is going to take place tomorrow. It seems is going to be awesome! I am already looking forward to it! I’ll tell you about it probably on Monday. Thus, I might post some pictures!

July 8

Julio 8

Today I took classes with Miroslav Brejcha for my chamber music repertoire, Piano Trio no. 4 Op. 11 by Beethoven. I was so nervous, as I also played with the guy that is going to be the violinist, and instead of the cellist, one professor from Pilsen conservatory played, she (cellist) is going to be here on Sunday, so she is coming to the class on Tuesday. I think I didn’t do a very bad job, however, I have to practice much more. This piece is stressing me a little, because it seems we are going to play the whole Trio, which is about 36 pages. Hopefully, in a time soon we are going to be playing the first movement. I must say this trio is so beautiful, I am really excited about this project which hopefully is going to be good and ready to perform before the summer ends. Nevertheless, I also have to practice my other repertoire for Dr. Silverman’s class, which is going to take place on Saturday. So, the six hours that each of us pianists have to practice are barely enough, and make me feel so jealous of the string players who can practice from 8am to 10 pm at the dorms.

Also, today was the piano recital. Professor Arthur Green started the recital playing so beautifully the Chaconne from Bach and Melody from Gluck; he is able to move everyone in the audience. It was a delight being among those in the audience. After him, four students from Manhattan School of Music played. It was a really good concert. They all played SO good and So beautiful.

*An amazing fact: Beer is way cheaper than water, as water here seems to be really precious while beer here is amazingly abundant- Pilsen is known for its excellence in beer. (Not saying I am saving money!!).

First day at Pilsen

First day at Pilsen

I have to say, my trip here was not that good at all as it happens everything that could have happened. On my first flight, El Paso to Houston, a lot of turbulence was experienced, but that is ok, who has not experienced that? Then, my flight to Amsterdam was an hour of delay, which causes me to lose my plane at Amsterdam, and therefore arriving three hours later than expected. So, instead of arriving at 10:50am I ended getting here at 2:45pm. By then, I was just willing to get to Pilsen and have a bath and a snap. But I was not expecting what happened to me next, it came out that when seeking for my luggage it did not ever arrive. Bath cancelled. Nap cancelled.

So, I went to the dorms at Pilsen without my clothes, there we made the check in, and someone took us to our dormitories. I do not share it. Do not imagine a very nice one, is kind of old, but who cares, I am just spending there the nights, hence most of the times I am at the new conservatory, which is a building that is for the pianists, we are 16 in total and 90 string players. After the check in, they told us that at 7pm someone was going to set up our computers for internet, guess what, no internet. Even though he start typing I do not know how many things, connecting to internet is nearly impossible, which is going to make my updates at the blog somewhat difficult. After that, they joined us for a meeting in which they told us the rules and present to us the staff. So I finally met Dr. Silverman, my professor for two weeks, also professor of Manhattan School of Music. He explained to us that what really matters is to play from the heart, and that the rest was easy to fix. Also, he told me he was happy with my audition cd, which makes me have more confidence in me, especially after meeting all these guys from big schools like Manhattan and Cleveland Institute of Music.

So, my second day and also the first day of classes, I started it really early for I had to buy something to wear for my first day. Thus, I woke up at 6:30am and went for shopping. (Next time I’ll be prepare to take with me something extra to wear as this is the second time something like this happens to me). So, thanks God here everything opens at 7. I found some clothes and something to take a shower :D. At 9:15, all Silverman’s students joined together in order to went for the very first time to the new conservatory, our new home. We start practicing until 11, were they told us how thing were going to work. We have 4 grand pianos for 16 people and 4 upright pianos for the same people. So, in total we have 3 hours of practice in each piano, which is good. I went back to practice after the meeting. At 2pm, I had my first lesson. It went ok, but it was really interesting. I learned lots of things. He is amazing, and knows a lot. However, I feel a little behind. Everyone here play amazingly well. There is a lot of competition. I have to practice very very much.

My second day of classes, third day at Pilsen went much better. I woke up early, and start to practice at 9. At 12:30, me and two other pianists went to know a little bit of Pilsen. Downtown is old, but beautiful. It is in fact a very interesting city. By 2:30, I was again practicing. At 5pm, I had my first class for chamber music, but just me and the professor, Miroslav Brejcha, Director of the conservatory at Pilsen.It seems I had to practice more this piece.

Everything is going much better now. However, you cannot imagine how much I miss a friend or at least someone close. Czech people does not like to talk in English that much, or does not know how to. So, other than in the Conservatory, is really hard to communicate. It seems I have to learn at least the very basics of this language, something I am really interested anyways. People in the Conservatory looks very nice, they are very talkative and kind. I am happier now. I am really interesting of learning as much as can possible be. My professors are so good, that is hard to describe. I am really looking forward for what can happen next. I’ll keep posting my anecdotes; hopefully the further ones are much more interesting!

july 7

July 7, 2010

This was an excellent day. I am so happy. I have learned so many things in a very short amount of time. Today was my second class with Dr. Silverman. He has so many things to teach me that I am already nervous of forgetting them, so I started to write them down. He is so nice, not just as a pianist and teacher but also as a person. He has been really supportive and comprehensive. Today at the end of my class, I asked him about my playing and my level because I started to be really nervous especially after listening to other pianists. They are all so wonderful, that make me fear of my future. Do I have a space in that competition? And what he answered made me want to practice more and more. He said more or less this: “ well Natalia, that is not a question that can have an answer. Can you pick between Hoffman, Rachmaninoff, Horowitz or Rubinstein? Each of them had their own especial thing which made them unique and wonderful. However, in order to be a good musician you must have talent, love for the music and especially be willing to work hard for it. And I can see you have three of them. So, just continue hard and you’ll be fine “ After that, I just couldn’t erase the smile from my face. I know I still have lots of work to do, but now more than ever, I am so willing to do it. Also, I must thank my teacher Dr. Jones as Dr. Silverman also told me “you are in really good hands. I can see you have a good teacher,” a fact that I have also noticed! So, thank you very much Dr. Jones, for all your teachings and patience! I am so excited. Everything here is music, music and more music. It is so wonderful as I am continuously learning something new that I am sure will make me a better pianist. My next class with him will take place on Saturday :D!!

Also, today was the first recital- We will have recitals Wednesday to Friday on the first week. The second and third week recitals are going to take place from Tuesday to Friday. And the last week they are going to be from Tuesday to Saturday- although it was very short, (just three violinists), it was SO amazing. Everyone played So good. This most be a dreaming! Here you can find SO many good musicians! Tomorrow, the recital will just be of pianists. I dare say it is going to be as amazing as today’s recital, as I am sort of listening to what they are playing at the practice rooms. But, I also have to say tomorrow’s recitals might make me want to practice and fear even more!

*By the way, my luggage arrived the next day (Monday)! When I got to the dorms, it was already waiting for me!!